He told me to look after myself 
A little bit more
And all i could Think about is
How could i ever possibly be
Sane enough to do that
Because i had felt the tides pull
A little bit stronger
And i have tasted my own blood in desperation
To find anything familiar 
Running through those veins

please lover, i have known immensely the absence of your presence 

And it sits beside me in bed every night; 
Curled around my fingers, I smoke you out
As it seems my lungs are on fire
And lover, please, i have tried to exile myself into a place
Where i am okay
And i am good
And the thought of being with you forever
Did not suffocate me