Monday, January 25, 2021

LIKE EMPTY WINE BOTTLES STACKING
UP AGAINST ONE ANOTHER IN MY MOUTH
INSTEAD OF MY TEETH;


FOR EVERY TIME I DARED SPEAK
ALL THE WORDS WOULD SPILL
LIKE A GLASS OF RED CABERNET
ONTO MY KNEES;


LIKE EVERY SUN RAY THAT HIT MY ROOF
SINCE I'VE BEEN BACK HOME
HAS BEEN AN INVITATION TO DUEL 


I COWER FROM FRIGID CORNER TO FRIGID CORNER
IN HOPES I CAN SALVAGE ANY BIT OF COLD LEFT
THAT SO DESPERATELY REMINDS ME OF
THE FUTURE I HAD TO PUT ON HOLD,


ENDLESSLY PICKING AT MY OWN PRUNE FINGERS
LIKE I COULD FIND THE MEANING OF MY OWN BITTER RETREAT
ETCHED DEEP INTO ALL THE LAYERS OF SKIN AND SWEAT



LIKE THE WAY I KEEP WAKING UP TO THE SOUND
OF SALT HITTING THE SIDEWALK OUTSIDE BUT
OUTSIDE IS NOT HERE AND MY ROOM HAS BECOME
A TIME CAPSULE OF THE OCEAN;
THE WAY THE WAVES OF NOSTALGIA RIDE ME CONSISTENTLY 
INTO A BOTTOMLESS WELL OF AN ACHE



EVERY NIGHT I FALL ALSEEP TO THE TART SOUND 
OF MY OWN GLASS HEART BREAKING,

EVERY MORNING I WAKE WITH ALL THE REASONS
OF MY OWN DISSATISFIED DEFEAT;


EVERY EVENING MY MUMMIFIED HANDS 
CEASE TO EXIST 
WITH THE PHONEY MEMORY OF 
SNOW CAVED POARCHES
AND ENDLESS SUNSETS 
THE COLOUR OF HIS DARK BLUE EYES