1.  I eat all my vitamin D pills for breakfast,

I don't know when I'll see the sun again,

It winks at me sometimes behind the highway

That doesn't lead me to my home,

Keep trying to take pictures of it like I wont

See it tomorrow, because I wont 

I spend my days laying under artificial lighting,

It still feels warmer than your skin against my own

It's sad I know, But sad is all I've got now 

That I've left home,

           2.  My breath draws frost onto my windowsill,

I think about you often, rotting by the glass;

Haven't moved from here since I came home,

Incase you ever wondered how slow

The apple tree in my backyard

Is freezing to the core;

I'll let you know, for I sat sad by the door

On that cold October day, 

And haven't gotten up since 

          3.  I leave the pink note you wrote me,

Upon my nightstands light, late at night I go to sleep

Praying I wake up eaten by flames; the warmth reminding me

Of that hot summers day of my departure; 

My sleep is weary with frozen toes, In my dreams

You laugh at me in 44, 

           4.  Haven't made a snow angel yet,

The ice melts too fast on my burning tropical skin;

I sometimes lay in my backyard when my heart feels too heavy

And weak; I hope to burn 

A whole so deep,

I'd be back home overseas 

            5. I Actually have a porch now, 

I can lay and sleep sad on something I've never been

Sad on before, but the neighbor wakes me up

When he mows his lawn late at night,

Says the power is cheaper after midnight

I say the world is softer after midnight

And I sleep quieter during twilight now,

I think he stopped mowing his lawn so late at dusk

But it's winter now, and I can't sleep no more

And he can't mow his lawn in the morning 

Due to all the frost, We both don't like the snow

I tell him tales of a Sun that burns too low

And he asked me why I even left

So I never talked to him again

             6. Everything reminds me of you here,

You'd love the neighborhoods dog, she cries every night

At 3 am, I barely hear her over my own;

Keep waking up to the smell of salt, everything reminds me

Of back home, Never liked the ocean

Until I couldn't go

             7.   I wonder what you're doing now, 

Laying under a stolen sun,

Haven't seen it in my neighborhood for days

Back home sounds like a swear word now,

My father cries when I speak of it too much,

But I can't help it when I scream it 

In my sleep

             8.  I'll see my mother grow old through the phone,

I only talk to my therapist about this

I thought it would be a good idea

To pay someone to listen to me,

She thinks I carry the past too deep inside of me

I told her I need some time to think

I've left all my feelings overseas,

           9.  I've been smoking too much lately,

And drinking too much coffee, you'd be surprised at how much caffeine

An anxious mess can drink, but it's the only thing that ever made my heart beat

Faster than you ever could;

In a city where all the clocks have frozen,

I stay awake while your asleep and smoke

My days away like I've got so much left 
Of them to give, 

               10.  I think too much here, everyday

I would say goodbye to you,

In a form of a goodnight

And I sometimes stop and think

If that's the reason 

I can't sleep at night